La Vie En Rose

May 16

Remember when you spun for 20 minutes, 7.6 miles, and then learned you only burnt 107 calories? And then proceeded to eat everything in sight because dinner wouldn’t be for another 3 hours?

….
Obviously not my best day.

Apr 28

AGHHH! I hate being a poor college student.
My friends are driving me crazy, because their families are rich and paying for their kids’ educations, plus they all have jobs, and then look down their nose at me when I tell them I can’t do things with them because “I should have got a job”.
Bitch, I do not have time for a job!! KoH takes up 90% of my time, but it’s definitely more rewarding than any of my friends’ jobs (well, not financially rewarding, but still. Nobody’s going to hire a baby-wrangler).

I just hate being constantly financially burdened and being treated like it’s my fault for not being well-off.
Yes, I am decently well-off family-wise, but will my family pay for my education? No, because my parents only will pay for an AA degree, and mine was free. Does that make any sense either? No. They get away with paying approximately $300 a quarter in small necessities like books, gas money, and occasional groceries…. hardly a dent in my $20,000 a year debt accumulation. Oh, and they made me pay for my brother’s tuition for fall quarter. That’s $800 I’ll never see again.
I’m pretty much alone, and a 20-hour/week job during the summer ain’t gonna cut it. That’s only $350 a month in paychecks, which leaves me being poor as eff come the next school year.

I can’t even get anyone to help me pay $550 for an apartment deposit, even though I’ll pay them back as soon as UW sends me my vacating check, because my parents “already support me too much”.
I was unaware sending their daughter into a spiral of debt was being supportive, but okay.

Oct 15

1. The most I’ve spent this last week was on student loan payments. I understand they’re not due til I graduate, but I like to snowball when I have a little extra pocket money.

2. Today I feel yucky towards money. I don’t have enough and the number in my bank account frightens me.

3. Money can’t buy happiness. One free/inexpensive thing I did last week that made me happy was go to Mod Pizza with my boyfriend. Cheap cheap.

4. I will consider this week a success if I manage to get next Friday off from choir so next week can be a success, too!

5. If I could could quit my job for a month and travel throughout one country, I would choose France. After all, what am I spending my $8701 a year on, if not to learn french?

Oct 05

My good friend Josh always picks the perfect time to call me and pick me up out of my rut!

Sep 18

1. The most I’ve spent this last week was on Early Housing fee, $144. I will be SO glad when UW stops bleeding me dry.

2. Today I feel mehhhh towards money. Someone needs to pay me back $950 and my bank account looks depressing and empty… plus I just bought Ryan’s birthday present and a haircut, and neither of those things were cheap. At least there’s a paycheck on the horizon.

3. Money can’t buy happiness. One free/inexpensive thing I did last week that made me happy was webcam’d with Ryan!

4. I will consider this week a success if I get moved into Hansee with minimal obstructions or confusion.

5. One of my most memorable birthdays was my 17th birthday, where my boyfriend at the time cancelled on me and my parents gave me a giant Rodgers and Hammerstein boxed set.

Sep 17

Dear Friend,

Just because I don’t drink doesn’t mean I don’t want to go to parties where other people will be drinking. It’s not like I’m allergic to the stuff.

Love,

Alex

Sep 16

I am so confused.

Aug 23

I’ve been feeling pretty down today (must be the post-vacation blues, I guess), so I guess a list of 10 things that make me happy is in order.

1. That feeling you get just when the movie is starting, and you know it’s going to be awesome.
2. Waking up to a snuggling, lovey-dovey cat lying on my tummy.
3. Snuggling up in that little spot between Ryan’s shoulder and neck and just relaxing.
4. Being super-nice to my customers and being rewarded with a bad-ass tip.
5. Finding great deals on eBay!
6. Finishing a sewing project that resulted from buying that “great deal” on eBay.
7. That just-shaved feeling. It’s a feeling of accomplishment.
8. Indulging in something little when I feel like I deserve it.
9. Putting money into my retirement fund. My old-lady self will love me for it one day.
10. A hug from my mom. It always fixes everything.

Jul 07

wouldn’t it be nice?

These things would make me so, so happy.

  • an amazing job doing something I love (teaching? buying and selling clothes? making movies? making coffee? who knows?)
  • a wonderful husband
  • close friends (when I don’t want to be with my wonderful husband!)
  • a beautiful house in California, with a big yard and room for…
  • a horse!
  • a sweet guard dog
Jun 05

Dear Ryan,

I really don’t think I can put into words how much I love you, except to say “I love you” a million times over… and I still don’t think it would be enough.
I’m so happy that you’re mine!

Love,

Alex